NEW CAR!!!!!!

OMG i'm finall y so happy now!!!!! i moved out to have some of my own freedom and i got a new car. it is so sexy its a black kia amanti and it has tinted windows and black leather heated seats. it has an infinity stereo system and it rocks my sexy pink socks....lol hahahahahahhaha!!!!!!!!! Thanks mommy for wanting ur blue car back! love ya!!!

SAVE THE DRAMA FOR UR MAMMA!!!

OMG I'M SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok alot has happened but let me just tell everyone right now that I just finished my last lesson for my make up work and now tomorrow morning I'm going to the school to take my test and i will be done!!!!! YAY!!!! Anyways New York was great....but I missed Nano alot but at the same time i didn't wanna leave...lol. But my mom has caused more problems. She still dont want me to be with Nano...and I know I should probably listen to her but honestly i don't see anything wrong with him. the only bad thing about im is that he needs a job which he is working on. He is such a cutie. He has alot of the same qualities that my grandpa has...well in the way that he treats me he is alot like my grandpa donio. He always makes jokes and sometimes i act like my grandma and just roll my eyes at him...even though i know they are funny i just get irritated with it. haha thanks granma!!! and he is always there for me to listen to my problems and he is wlaays there when i need a shoulder to cry on. He reminds me of my uncles too. hah he is kinda like my uncle jeff cuz he is really skinny and he reminds me of my uncle jon cuz he is really protective of me and his family. and he reminds me of my uncle chad becuz whenever aunt jill wants her feet massaged or whenever she tells chad to do something he always does it and that's how nano is with me. he always picks a flower and gives it to me even if it's a dandelion and he always makes me smile. :-) haha haha haha one day we were at the park and we were playing basket ball with rick and walker. nano and walker were a team and me and rick were on a team. well nano had the ball and i was trying to get it from him and of course he is taller than me and i couldn't reach and so then i jumped and acted like i twisted my ankle and of course he dropped everything to make sure that i was ok and that's how me and rick won the game...haha haha i can't believe he fell for it. lol and he always invites me to all of their family bbqs. and if i do go he makes my plate and gives me some to take home. haha they are trying to make me fatter. lol. just kidding. and not to mention but he always asks me about my family and how my grandparents are doing and he always wants to go everywhere with me. he is such a sweet heart. he might not have a job but he treats me hella better than pate ever did. anyways enough talk about him im gonna go to sleep so i can take my test tomorrow. have sweet dreams everyone! ALOFA ATU !!!!!!!

Should I be happy or should I be making my mom happy???????????????

OMG I'M SO SICK OF THE DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok so u know how Sela hooked me and Nano up??? Well now her and my mom totally are making everything worse. I fell in love with Nano and now they are both telling me not to talk to him or see him ever again. And it's so hard cuz I really like Nano and I feel so comfortable around him. Me and him talk about everything and he never judges me or makes fun of me. Well Sela and my mom (by the way sela is pate's mom) well they texted Nano from my phone and told him to find another girl and to forget about me cuz we can't be together and told him that I didn't want to be with him and all this other stupid crap. Well then after they did that I texted Nano and told him that it wasn't me it was my mom and sela. and he said that he already knew it wasn't me and he said that even if I didn't want to be with him he wouldn't find another girl cuz he only wants me and he will always look for me. Well then my mom found out that I talked to him and now she is even more mad at me and she is tracking my every move. She keeps telling my brothers that I'm a waste of her money and she thought that I was better than her but she was wrong about me the whole time and blah blah blah blah!!!! It makes me so upset....OMG i can't believe that I'm crying rite now just writing this....but it makes me mad cuz my mom always tells me and yells at me when i make a comment about her spending alot of time with arturo. she tells me that she deserves to be happy too and she wants someone in her life, and that she doesn't want to be alone. Well don't i deserve the same rights??? I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS make sure my brothers are taken care of before i ever go out with friends. ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!! and my mom thinks that i don't care about anything anymore which is totally not true. I know I'm only 17 and I don't know what true love is yet...BUT when I'm with Nano I always feel safe, I always feel comfortable, and I'm ALWAYS happy. I'm not planning a wedding with him yet...I just want to have him in my life. He makes me happy and I love being around him and his family. He always invites me to all of his family BBQs and his family is so nice to me. I've been more happy and comfortable around Nano, than I ever was with Pate. And me and Nano are alot alike. We have alot of the same wants in life. Like I was telling him how I want a Escalade and a big house and he wants a big house too and he hopes he can get a scholarship to play football at University of Utah. Rite now he plays for the Utah Heat. I've never been to any of his games cuz my mom won't let me go. And now she won't even let me talk to him at all. UUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so freakin' irritated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well peace out for now I'm gonna go to bed!

New Crush!

omg i have so much boy drama right now it's not even funny. :-( anyways long story short i found out that pate never really liked me...well he only liked me as a friend but he was playing me the whole time. so now me and him hardly ever talk now but i'm going out with his cousin named Nano. which i know sounds weird and dumb at the same time but pate's mom hooked me and Nano up so that I could get my mind off of Pate. Well now it's just drama cuz it turns out that me and nano really like each other and nobody wants us together. well most of his family wants us to be together but pate's mom and my mom are WAY mad about it. But it's really weird becuz i never thought that I would like nano. But I like him ALOT ALOT ALOT.!!! ugh it's crazy...anyway i got to go for now but i'll update later. love ya peace out

CONFUSED MORE THAN U KNOW!!!

OMG guys are so stupid and confusing. Hint Hint...Pate! Ok I thought things were good between us and they have been. Well up until Tuesday. We were talking about us and he was telling me how his last girlfriend he had really hurt him and he's not really ready for a relationship. And I told him I wasn't either but I was willing to take a risk...and he said the same thing. So we were official on Tuesday. Well then on Wednesday he was telling me how he is still afraid to get hurt and he said that he really does love me. he told me how special I am to him and he loves me a lot but he isn't ready for us to have a relationship. So we decided to just be friends and hang out together for a while. So then after we agreed to be friends he tried to kiss me on the lips and I said to him "we are only friends and I don't kiss my friends on the lips" haha so then he just gave me a hug...which is cool. well then I was taking him to work before I went to work on wednesday and he was holding my hand...well i pulled my hand away becuz I don't want either of us to be confused about what our friendship really should be. So when we got to his work he told me that he loves me...it was weird becuz he told me 6 times that he loved me before I left. :-S it was weird. Well then on thursday I went to his house and I was going to tell him how I feel about him but I didn't have time cuz he had to leave to work. but he gave me a BIG hug and he told me that he misses me and he loves me. So now I'm like wat the heck!!!!!!!!! :-@ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHH IT is making me kinda upset becuz I understand how he feels...but he is confusing me when he tells me that he loves me and he misses me when we just saw each other yesterday. it's weird....maybe I don't want a relationship....haha lol...but yea...i'm just way too confused. and it makes me feel sad becuz I love the way that he treats me. he is so nice and i feel so comfortable and happy around him..just being at his house when we are hanging out with his lil bros and sisters i'm happy! and I don't want to lose him but being a friend is better than nothing. I just want to know if he really wants to be with me or not..............which by the way....it was really awkward cuz a couple of saturday nights ago I was at his house and we were hanging out with some of his friends from Cali. and they were asking us how long we've been together and we said a few months...well then the guy asked if we were getting married? I said NO but Pate said YES! hmmmmmm......see wat i mean...guys are freakin' confusing!!!!!!!!! ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Working Too Much!!!

:-( omg my bestest friends got into a car crash on Monday afternoon. Kelsy and Honey Girl. I love them both so much and I was so sad when I found out. Well Kelsy was suppose to work 4-10 and I was going to work 5-8:30 and Stephanie was suppose to work 4-10. Well on her way to work Kelsy was in the left turn lane in the middle of the intersection and the light turned yellow and she saw a Suburban coming and thought that it was going to stop so she started to turn...but the truck unfortuanately didn't stop. So they crashed. Kelsy is ok but Honey Girl has a broken pelvis and she had to have surgery. :-( :-( :-( and she has broken ribs. But luckily she will be ok. I can't waitto go see her. I want to see her right now but I can't because she is still in ICU.
:-( I miss her and I feel bad because she is a senior at Hunter. She just has to be part of 09 so fine!! :-( Get well soon Honey Girl!!! Poor Kelsy is feeling like total crap because the lady that was in the suburban was 9 months pregnant and she lost the baby. So Kelsy is physically ok..but emotionally she is having a hard time. Me and my friend Stephanie, we both love Kelsy and Honey Girl so much. We made a card that was in the shape of pants for Kelsy because the day of her accident she was wearing her favorite jeans and she said that they got ripped. So we made her a big card that is in the shape of skinny jeans. I hope that she likes it! She feels so horrible about what happened and she blames herself so much. I wish there was something else that I could do for her. :-( I really want to go see Honey Girl. I know that she is ok but I need to see her so that I know for sure. :-( Anyways so because Honey Girl is in the hospital and won't be able to walk for a while, and Kelsy isn't ready to come back to work yet I've been working so much this week. My check will be nice because it will have over time! :-) yay yay, but I would much rather have Honey Girl and Kelsy working than a nice pay check. :-( Get well soon girls!





OK and now to update on Pate. Well things are ok between us. Sometimes I go to have dinner with him at work but this week I've barely seen him cuz I've been working so much lately. :-( but hopefully tonight I will be done cleaning my grandparents house in time to go have dinner with him. Hopefully! He is still a cutie. It's so funny because my really good friend Stephanie teases him sometimes. Like last night we went to Wal-Mart after work to get the stuff to make Kelsy's card and we saw him and Steph told him that I was her girlfriend and he got a little mad. It was so funny! hahahaha. She told him that I love her more than I love him...omg you should have seen his face. hahahahahahahahahahahhahhaha you should have been there. But it's kinda true...lol...! Anyways Peace out for now I have to go get my bros from school. Love ya all!

College Option #1

Ok so I know I talk way too much about Pate and not enough about school...lol...so here is a little update to let everyone who is wondering and interested know what I've been up to. I have been having a hard time deciding on what I want to do. I really want to open my own botique where I sell the bags that I desing and make but to go to school and get certified and everything it would be way too expensive and I would have to go out of state to go to school for my fashion stuff. So I've been really interested in massage therapy for a while and I started looking into the Utah Colllege of Massage Therapy. This morning I went and took a tour of the school and got some more information about it. I would like to go to that school, but still I'm keeping some options open and hopefully I will figure something out soon. If I did end up doing massage therapy I want to work on criuse ships and I can still do my fashion stuff outside of my home when I have some free time. But I still am not quite sure what to do...man growing up sucks.... :-(