New Crush!

omg i have so much boy drama right now it's not even funny. :-( anyways long story short i found out that pate never really liked me...well he only liked me as a friend but he was playing me the whole time. so now me and him hardly ever talk now but i'm going out with his cousin named Nano. which i know sounds weird and dumb at the same time but pate's mom hooked me and Nano up so that I could get my mind off of Pate. Well now it's just drama cuz it turns out that me and nano really like each other and nobody wants us together. well most of his family wants us to be together but pate's mom and my mom are WAY mad about it. But it's really weird becuz i never thought that I would like nano. But I like him ALOT ALOT ALOT.!!! ugh it's crazy...anyway i got to go for now but i'll update later. love ya peace out

CONFUSED MORE THAN U KNOW!!!

OMG guys are so stupid and confusing. Hint Hint...Pate! Ok I thought things were good between us and they have been. Well up until Tuesday. We were talking about us and he was telling me how his last girlfriend he had really hurt him and he's not really ready for a relationship. And I told him I wasn't either but I was willing to take a risk...and he said the same thing. So we were official on Tuesday. Well then on Wednesday he was telling me how he is still afraid to get hurt and he said that he really does love me. he told me how special I am to him and he loves me a lot but he isn't ready for us to have a relationship. So we decided to just be friends and hang out together for a while. So then after we agreed to be friends he tried to kiss me on the lips and I said to him "we are only friends and I don't kiss my friends on the lips" haha so then he just gave me a hug...which is cool. well then I was taking him to work before I went to work on wednesday and he was holding my hand...well i pulled my hand away becuz I don't want either of us to be confused about what our friendship really should be. So when we got to his work he told me that he loves me...it was weird becuz he told me 6 times that he loved me before I left. :-S it was weird. Well then on thursday I went to his house and I was going to tell him how I feel about him but I didn't have time cuz he had to leave to work. but he gave me a BIG hug and he told me that he misses me and he loves me. So now I'm like wat the heck!!!!!!!!! :-@ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHH IT is making me kinda upset becuz I understand how he feels...but he is confusing me when he tells me that he loves me and he misses me when we just saw each other yesterday. it's weird....maybe I don't want a relationship....haha lol...but yea...i'm just way too confused. and it makes me feel sad becuz I love the way that he treats me. he is so nice and i feel so comfortable and happy around him..just being at his house when we are hanging out with his lil bros and sisters i'm happy! and I don't want to lose him but being a friend is better than nothing. I just want to know if he really wants to be with me or not..............which by the way....it was really awkward cuz a couple of saturday nights ago I was at his house and we were hanging out with some of his friends from Cali. and they were asking us how long we've been together and we said a few months...well then the guy asked if we were getting married? I said NO but Pate said YES! hmmmmmm......see wat i mean...guys are freakin' confusing!!!!!!!!! ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Working Too Much!!!

:-( omg my bestest friends got into a car crash on Monday afternoon. Kelsy and Honey Girl. I love them both so much and I was so sad when I found out. Well Kelsy was suppose to work 4-10 and I was going to work 5-8:30 and Stephanie was suppose to work 4-10. Well on her way to work Kelsy was in the left turn lane in the middle of the intersection and the light turned yellow and she saw a Suburban coming and thought that it was going to stop so she started to turn...but the truck unfortuanately didn't stop. So they crashed. Kelsy is ok but Honey Girl has a broken pelvis and she had to have surgery. :-( :-( :-( and she has broken ribs. But luckily she will be ok. I can't waitto go see her. I want to see her right now but I can't because she is still in ICU.
:-( I miss her and I feel bad because she is a senior at Hunter. She just has to be part of 09 so fine!! :-( Get well soon Honey Girl!!! Poor Kelsy is feeling like total crap because the lady that was in the suburban was 9 months pregnant and she lost the baby. So Kelsy is physically ok..but emotionally she is having a hard time. Me and my friend Stephanie, we both love Kelsy and Honey Girl so much. We made a card that was in the shape of pants for Kelsy because the day of her accident she was wearing her favorite jeans and she said that they got ripped. So we made her a big card that is in the shape of skinny jeans. I hope that she likes it! She feels so horrible about what happened and she blames herself so much. I wish there was something else that I could do for her. :-( I really want to go see Honey Girl. I know that she is ok but I need to see her so that I know for sure. :-( Anyways so because Honey Girl is in the hospital and won't be able to walk for a while, and Kelsy isn't ready to come back to work yet I've been working so much this week. My check will be nice because it will have over time! :-) yay yay, but I would much rather have Honey Girl and Kelsy working than a nice pay check. :-( Get well soon girls!





OK and now to update on Pate. Well things are ok between us. Sometimes I go to have dinner with him at work but this week I've barely seen him cuz I've been working so much lately. :-( but hopefully tonight I will be done cleaning my grandparents house in time to go have dinner with him. Hopefully! He is still a cutie. It's so funny because my really good friend Stephanie teases him sometimes. Like last night we went to Wal-Mart after work to get the stuff to make Kelsy's card and we saw him and Steph told him that I was her girlfriend and he got a little mad. It was so funny! hahahaha. She told him that I love her more than I love him...omg you should have seen his face. hahahahahahahahahahahhahhaha you should have been there. But it's kinda true...lol...! Anyways Peace out for now I have to go get my bros from school. Love ya all!

College Option #1

Ok so I know I talk way too much about Pate and not enough about school...lol...so here is a little update to let everyone who is wondering and interested know what I've been up to. I have been having a hard time deciding on what I want to do. I really want to open my own botique where I sell the bags that I desing and make but to go to school and get certified and everything it would be way too expensive and I would have to go out of state to go to school for my fashion stuff. So I've been really interested in massage therapy for a while and I started looking into the Utah Colllege of Massage Therapy. This morning I went and took a tour of the school and got some more information about it. I would like to go to that school, but still I'm keeping some options open and hopefully I will figure something out soon. If I did end up doing massage therapy I want to work on criuse ships and I can still do my fashion stuff outside of my home when I have some free time. But I still am not quite sure what to do...man growing up sucks.... :-(

VALENTINES DAY!!

OH SNAP...This year was my bestest valentines day ever!!!!!!!!!!!! well at least so far. ok so on Friday night after I got off of work I went home and showered and got all cute to go decorate Pate's room for Valentines day. I didn't know what to get him so I decided to give him a heart attack! I cut out so many hearts and put them all the walls in his room. His little brothers and sisters helped me. It was so cute!! Then I bought like 4 little bags of heart confetti and we threw it all over his room. Then I gave him a stuffed animal dolphin and me and him got matching bracelets. They are wood beads and I got them because he always wears jewelry like that. Then I got this streamer stuff and put it going from the top of his doorway to the floor. His room turned out so cute! and I was way happy that he liked it!!! :-) Then we were hanging out at his house for a little bit. Then on Saturday morning he came to my house and brought me red roses and a white bear that has a red heart and it says be my valentine! AWW it's so cute. :-) :-] But yea I really had a fantastic Valentines this year. Haha. I hope everyone else had a good valentines day too. Well I got to peace out! love ya!

FAMILY DINNER

oK so me and Pate didn't end up going out on Saturday night but on Sunday he came with me to my family dinner. It was so much fun...he said "he likes my family and they are really fun." I have to admit tho....I was kinda scared at first to take him becuz I thought that my family would give him a hard time and I thought that they would tease him. But surprisingly none of that happened. We ate dinner and my little cousin taught a lesson about faith. Then we played my grandparent's wii for like a half hour. He had so much fun. I was really glad that he went! The only bad thing is that now everyone keeps asking when the wedding is. :-( I should've known that the teasing would start sooner or later. LOL...it's ok I guess...not really but whatever.. haha. Anyways peace out for now! love ya

I'M SO EXCITED!!!

OH SNAP I THINK I MIGHT HAVE A DATE TOMORO NITE!!!! I'm so excited. I work in the morning tomorrow at work so me and Pate are thinking about going out to dinner when I get off of work...I can hardly stand the wait. Work is going to drag on FOREVER!! ughh...oh well maybe it will go by fast if I think about it all day....OMG what will I wear????? hmmm maybe something cute and my hair i will wear straight....well I better go to bed I just wanted everyone to know that I'm way excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!