New Crush!

omg i have so much boy drama right now it's not even funny. :-( anyways long story short i found out that pate never really liked me...well he only liked me as a friend but he was playing me the whole time. so now me and him hardly ever talk now but i'm going out with his cousin named Nano. which i know sounds weird and dumb at the same time but pate's mom hooked me and Nano up so that I could get my mind off of Pate. Well now it's just drama cuz it turns out that me and nano really like each other and nobody wants us together. well most of his family wants us to be together but pate's mom and my mom are WAY mad about it. But it's really weird becuz i never thought that I would like nano. But I like him ALOT ALOT ALOT.!!! ugh it's crazy...anyway i got to go for now but i'll update later. love ya peace out

CONFUSED MORE THAN U KNOW!!!

OMG guys are so stupid and confusing. Hint Hint...Pate! Ok I thought things were good between us and they have been. Well up until Tuesday. We were talking about us and he was telling me how his last girlfriend he had really hurt him and he's not really ready for a relationship. And I told him I wasn't either but I was willing to take a risk...and he said the same thing. So we were official on Tuesday. Well then on Wednesday he was telling me how he is still afraid to get hurt and he said that he really does love me. he told me how special I am to him and he loves me a lot but he isn't ready for us to have a relationship. So we decided to just be friends and hang out together for a while. So then after we agreed to be friends he tried to kiss me on the lips and I said to him "we are only friends and I don't kiss my friends on the lips" haha so then he just gave me a hug...which is cool. well then I was taking him to work before I went to work on wednesday and he was holding my hand...well i pulled my hand away becuz I don't want either of us to be confused about what our friendship really should be. So when we got to his work he told me that he loves me...it was weird becuz he told me 6 times that he loved me before I left. :-S it was weird. Well then on thursday I went to his house and I was going to tell him how I feel about him but I didn't have time cuz he had to leave to work. but he gave me a BIG hug and he told me that he misses me and he loves me. So now I'm like wat the heck!!!!!!!!! :-@ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHH IT is making me kinda upset becuz I understand how he feels...but he is confusing me when he tells me that he loves me and he misses me when we just saw each other yesterday. it's weird....maybe I don't want a relationship....haha lol...but yea...i'm just way too confused. and it makes me feel sad becuz I love the way that he treats me. he is so nice and i feel so comfortable and happy around him..just being at his house when we are hanging out with his lil bros and sisters i'm happy! and I don't want to lose him but being a friend is better than nothing. I just want to know if he really wants to be with me or not..............which by the way....it was really awkward cuz a couple of saturday nights ago I was at his house and we were hanging out with some of his friends from Cali. and they were asking us how long we've been together and we said a few months...well then the guy asked if we were getting married? I said NO but Pate said YES! hmmmmmm......see wat i mean...guys are freakin' confusing!!!!!!!!! ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!