NEW CAR!!!!!!

OMG i'm finall y so happy now!!!!! i moved out to have some of my own freedom and i got a new car. it is so sexy its a black kia amanti and it has tinted windows and black leather heated seats. it has an infinity stereo system and it rocks my sexy pink socks....lol hahahahahahhaha!!!!!!!!! Thanks mommy for wanting ur blue car back! love ya!!!

SAVE THE DRAMA FOR UR MAMMA!!!

OMG I'M SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok alot has happened but let me just tell everyone right now that I just finished my last lesson for my make up work and now tomorrow morning I'm going to the school to take my test and i will be done!!!!! YAY!!!! Anyways New York was great....but I missed Nano alot but at the same time i didn't wanna leave...lol. But my mom has caused more problems. She still dont want me to be with Nano...and I know I should probably listen to her but honestly i don't see anything wrong with him. the only bad thing about im is that he needs a job which he is working on. He is such a cutie. He has alot of the same qualities that my grandpa has...well in the way that he treats me he is alot like my grandpa donio. He always makes jokes and sometimes i act like my grandma and just roll my eyes at him...even though i know they are funny i just get irritated with it. haha thanks granma!!! and he is always there for me to listen to my problems and he is wlaays there when i need a shoulder to cry on. He reminds me of my uncles too. hah he is kinda like my uncle jeff cuz he is really skinny and he reminds me of my uncle jon cuz he is really protective of me and his family. and he reminds me of my uncle chad becuz whenever aunt jill wants her feet massaged or whenever she tells chad to do something he always does it and that's how nano is with me. he always picks a flower and gives it to me even if it's a dandelion and he always makes me smile. :-) haha haha haha one day we were at the park and we were playing basket ball with rick and walker. nano and walker were a team and me and rick were on a team. well nano had the ball and i was trying to get it from him and of course he is taller than me and i couldn't reach and so then i jumped and acted like i twisted my ankle and of course he dropped everything to make sure that i was ok and that's how me and rick won the game...haha haha i can't believe he fell for it. lol and he always invites me to all of their family bbqs. and if i do go he makes my plate and gives me some to take home. haha they are trying to make me fatter. lol. just kidding. and not to mention but he always asks me about my family and how my grandparents are doing and he always wants to go everywhere with me. he is such a sweet heart. he might not have a job but he treats me hella better than pate ever did. anyways enough talk about him im gonna go to sleep so i can take my test tomorrow. have sweet dreams everyone! ALOFA ATU !!!!!!!

Should I be happy or should I be making my mom happy???????????????

OMG I'M SO SICK OF THE DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok so u know how Sela hooked me and Nano up??? Well now her and my mom totally are making everything worse. I fell in love with Nano and now they are both telling me not to talk to him or see him ever again. And it's so hard cuz I really like Nano and I feel so comfortable around him. Me and him talk about everything and he never judges me or makes fun of me. Well Sela and my mom (by the way sela is pate's mom) well they texted Nano from my phone and told him to find another girl and to forget about me cuz we can't be together and told him that I didn't want to be with him and all this other stupid crap. Well then after they did that I texted Nano and told him that it wasn't me it was my mom and sela. and he said that he already knew it wasn't me and he said that even if I didn't want to be with him he wouldn't find another girl cuz he only wants me and he will always look for me. Well then my mom found out that I talked to him and now she is even more mad at me and she is tracking my every move. She keeps telling my brothers that I'm a waste of her money and she thought that I was better than her but she was wrong about me the whole time and blah blah blah blah!!!! It makes me so upset....OMG i can't believe that I'm crying rite now just writing this....but it makes me mad cuz my mom always tells me and yells at me when i make a comment about her spending alot of time with arturo. she tells me that she deserves to be happy too and she wants someone in her life, and that she doesn't want to be alone. Well don't i deserve the same rights??? I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS make sure my brothers are taken care of before i ever go out with friends. ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!! and my mom thinks that i don't care about anything anymore which is totally not true. I know I'm only 17 and I don't know what true love is yet...BUT when I'm with Nano I always feel safe, I always feel comfortable, and I'm ALWAYS happy. I'm not planning a wedding with him yet...I just want to have him in my life. He makes me happy and I love being around him and his family. He always invites me to all of his family BBQs and his family is so nice to me. I've been more happy and comfortable around Nano, than I ever was with Pate. And me and Nano are alot alike. We have alot of the same wants in life. Like I was telling him how I want a Escalade and a big house and he wants a big house too and he hopes he can get a scholarship to play football at University of Utah. Rite now he plays for the Utah Heat. I've never been to any of his games cuz my mom won't let me go. And now she won't even let me talk to him at all. UUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so freakin' irritated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well peace out for now I'm gonna go to bed!

New Crush!

omg i have so much boy drama right now it's not even funny. :-( anyways long story short i found out that pate never really liked me...well he only liked me as a friend but he was playing me the whole time. so now me and him hardly ever talk now but i'm going out with his cousin named Nano. which i know sounds weird and dumb at the same time but pate's mom hooked me and Nano up so that I could get my mind off of Pate. Well now it's just drama cuz it turns out that me and nano really like each other and nobody wants us together. well most of his family wants us to be together but pate's mom and my mom are WAY mad about it. But it's really weird becuz i never thought that I would like nano. But I like him ALOT ALOT ALOT.!!! ugh it's crazy...anyway i got to go for now but i'll update later. love ya peace out

CONFUSED MORE THAN U KNOW!!!

OMG guys are so stupid and confusing. Hint Hint...Pate! Ok I thought things were good between us and they have been. Well up until Tuesday. We were talking about us and he was telling me how his last girlfriend he had really hurt him and he's not really ready for a relationship. And I told him I wasn't either but I was willing to take a risk...and he said the same thing. So we were official on Tuesday. Well then on Wednesday he was telling me how he is still afraid to get hurt and he said that he really does love me. he told me how special I am to him and he loves me a lot but he isn't ready for us to have a relationship. So we decided to just be friends and hang out together for a while. So then after we agreed to be friends he tried to kiss me on the lips and I said to him "we are only friends and I don't kiss my friends on the lips" haha so then he just gave me a hug...which is cool. well then I was taking him to work before I went to work on wednesday and he was holding my hand...well i pulled my hand away becuz I don't want either of us to be confused about what our friendship really should be. So when we got to his work he told me that he loves me...it was weird becuz he told me 6 times that he loved me before I left. :-S it was weird. Well then on thursday I went to his house and I was going to tell him how I feel about him but I didn't have time cuz he had to leave to work. but he gave me a BIG hug and he told me that he misses me and he loves me. So now I'm like wat the heck!!!!!!!!! :-@ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHH IT is making me kinda upset becuz I understand how he feels...but he is confusing me when he tells me that he loves me and he misses me when we just saw each other yesterday. it's weird....maybe I don't want a relationship....haha lol...but yea...i'm just way too confused. and it makes me feel sad becuz I love the way that he treats me. he is so nice and i feel so comfortable and happy around him..just being at his house when we are hanging out with his lil bros and sisters i'm happy! and I don't want to lose him but being a friend is better than nothing. I just want to know if he really wants to be with me or not..............which by the way....it was really awkward cuz a couple of saturday nights ago I was at his house and we were hanging out with some of his friends from Cali. and they were asking us how long we've been together and we said a few months...well then the guy asked if we were getting married? I said NO but Pate said YES! hmmmmmm......see wat i mean...guys are freakin' confusing!!!!!!!!! ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Working Too Much!!!

:-( omg my bestest friends got into a car crash on Monday afternoon. Kelsy and Honey Girl. I love them both so much and I was so sad when I found out. Well Kelsy was suppose to work 4-10 and I was going to work 5-8:30 and Stephanie was suppose to work 4-10. Well on her way to work Kelsy was in the left turn lane in the middle of the intersection and the light turned yellow and she saw a Suburban coming and thought that it was going to stop so she started to turn...but the truck unfortuanately didn't stop. So they crashed. Kelsy is ok but Honey Girl has a broken pelvis and she had to have surgery. :-( :-( :-( and she has broken ribs. But luckily she will be ok. I can't waitto go see her. I want to see her right now but I can't because she is still in ICU.
:-( I miss her and I feel bad because she is a senior at Hunter. She just has to be part of 09 so fine!! :-( Get well soon Honey Girl!!! Poor Kelsy is feeling like total crap because the lady that was in the suburban was 9 months pregnant and she lost the baby. So Kelsy is physically ok..but emotionally she is having a hard time. Me and my friend Stephanie, we both love Kelsy and Honey Girl so much. We made a card that was in the shape of pants for Kelsy because the day of her accident she was wearing her favorite jeans and she said that they got ripped. So we made her a big card that is in the shape of skinny jeans. I hope that she likes it! She feels so horrible about what happened and she blames herself so much. I wish there was something else that I could do for her. :-( I really want to go see Honey Girl. I know that she is ok but I need to see her so that I know for sure. :-( Anyways so because Honey Girl is in the hospital and won't be able to walk for a while, and Kelsy isn't ready to come back to work yet I've been working so much this week. My check will be nice because it will have over time! :-) yay yay, but I would much rather have Honey Girl and Kelsy working than a nice pay check. :-( Get well soon girls!





OK and now to update on Pate. Well things are ok between us. Sometimes I go to have dinner with him at work but this week I've barely seen him cuz I've been working so much lately. :-( but hopefully tonight I will be done cleaning my grandparents house in time to go have dinner with him. Hopefully! He is still a cutie. It's so funny because my really good friend Stephanie teases him sometimes. Like last night we went to Wal-Mart after work to get the stuff to make Kelsy's card and we saw him and Steph told him that I was her girlfriend and he got a little mad. It was so funny! hahahaha. She told him that I love her more than I love him...omg you should have seen his face. hahahahahahahahahahahhahhaha you should have been there. But it's kinda true...lol...! Anyways Peace out for now I have to go get my bros from school. Love ya all!

College Option #1

Ok so I know I talk way too much about Pate and not enough about school...lol...so here is a little update to let everyone who is wondering and interested know what I've been up to. I have been having a hard time deciding on what I want to do. I really want to open my own botique where I sell the bags that I desing and make but to go to school and get certified and everything it would be way too expensive and I would have to go out of state to go to school for my fashion stuff. So I've been really interested in massage therapy for a while and I started looking into the Utah Colllege of Massage Therapy. This morning I went and took a tour of the school and got some more information about it. I would like to go to that school, but still I'm keeping some options open and hopefully I will figure something out soon. If I did end up doing massage therapy I want to work on criuse ships and I can still do my fashion stuff outside of my home when I have some free time. But I still am not quite sure what to do...man growing up sucks.... :-(

VALENTINES DAY!!

OH SNAP...This year was my bestest valentines day ever!!!!!!!!!!!! well at least so far. ok so on Friday night after I got off of work I went home and showered and got all cute to go decorate Pate's room for Valentines day. I didn't know what to get him so I decided to give him a heart attack! I cut out so many hearts and put them all the walls in his room. His little brothers and sisters helped me. It was so cute!! Then I bought like 4 little bags of heart confetti and we threw it all over his room. Then I gave him a stuffed animal dolphin and me and him got matching bracelets. They are wood beads and I got them because he always wears jewelry like that. Then I got this streamer stuff and put it going from the top of his doorway to the floor. His room turned out so cute! and I was way happy that he liked it!!! :-) Then we were hanging out at his house for a little bit. Then on Saturday morning he came to my house and brought me red roses and a white bear that has a red heart and it says be my valentine! AWW it's so cute. :-) :-] But yea I really had a fantastic Valentines this year. Haha. I hope everyone else had a good valentines day too. Well I got to peace out! love ya!

FAMILY DINNER

oK so me and Pate didn't end up going out on Saturday night but on Sunday he came with me to my family dinner. It was so much fun...he said "he likes my family and they are really fun." I have to admit tho....I was kinda scared at first to take him becuz I thought that my family would give him a hard time and I thought that they would tease him. But surprisingly none of that happened. We ate dinner and my little cousin taught a lesson about faith. Then we played my grandparent's wii for like a half hour. He had so much fun. I was really glad that he went! The only bad thing is that now everyone keeps asking when the wedding is. :-( I should've known that the teasing would start sooner or later. LOL...it's ok I guess...not really but whatever.. haha. Anyways peace out for now! love ya

I'M SO EXCITED!!!

OH SNAP I THINK I MIGHT HAVE A DATE TOMORO NITE!!!! I'm so excited. I work in the morning tomorrow at work so me and Pate are thinking about going out to dinner when I get off of work...I can hardly stand the wait. Work is going to drag on FOREVER!! ughh...oh well maybe it will go by fast if I think about it all day....OMG what will I wear????? hmmm maybe something cute and my hair i will wear straight....well I better go to bed I just wanted everyone to know that I'm way excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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What a Cutie!

OMG Pate is such a little cutie and so is his mom. I just love their family...lol. Ok on Friday he called me after I was out of school and I went to go see him for like 5 minutes. Well he had a wedding to go to on Saturday for like his aunt or cousin or someone in his family and he was standing in the line...well we were talkinga and he told me that he thought he was going to stand by me in the line...haha i wish...anyways. So then I was texting his mom after I left and I was asking her what I should get him for Valentines Day. Well she said that she would go with me. But it was so funny cuz on Friday he was looking SO FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously u all should have seen him. He was wearing a orange long sleeve shirt, and he had a Marbury/Starbury jersey over it that was white and orange. Then he was wearing a dark dark pair of blue jeans and white tennis shoes...i think they were addidas. And his hair was done all nice. OMG OMG I almost had a heart attack!!!!!! :-) haha...well then while I was texting his mom I asked if she dressed him...cuz she picks out his clothes and yea..and she said "YEA" so then I texted her back and told her that he looked so fine that I almost had to rape him...haha haha haha haha haha haha lol! she just laughed. But yea that's my story for now. I will write more later...peace out!!

Fun in my Fashion Class

Ok I have to tell u all a really funny story. Today in my fashion class we were making hats. We have a straw hat and a felt had that we are making. Well u have to steam iron the felt hat to fit your head cuz when we got the basic hat form they are way huge and you need to make it fit your head. Well me and my friend that's in my class was ironing my felt hat and I had the iron and I kept pressing the steam button and it kept shooting water out at her. Haha lol...we both didn't notice it the first couple of times but then like the third time she screamed " Ahh the stupid iron keeps squirting me!" So then I said "oh i'm sorry i didn't notice." Well then she was trying to help me iron out all of the creases and bumps and her hand was in the way and I accidentally pushed the steam button too fast. So then she started yelling at me and she said " ok watch it there with the steam" Haha it was so funny cuz we were both talking and not even paying attention. It was great you should've been there. lol

UPDATE!

Dang I have been so lazy with this thing...lol...anyways me and Pate are cool I guess. This past week at school there was a shooting across the street in one of the neighborhoods by the school. It's kinda scary because there are so many rumors going around now about fights and other stupid things. I wish that all of the rumors would just stop and we could just find out the REAL truth about everything. Long story short for all of you who didn't hear or know...there was a fight between a hispanic and a tongan. They were going to fight each other so they went across the street to fight so that they weren't on school campus. Well the Tongan kid (ricky) shot a gun and the hispanic guy (estaban) died. How sad :-( well now at school and everywhere else there are rumors around that the hispanics are going to shoot any polynesian that they see, no matter if they are tongan, samoan, it doesn't matter. It's kinda scary but luckily my school is surrounded by police, and there haven't been any more shootings or fights...at least that I know of. The news and kids at school keep spreading rumors and it's making me so mad cuz I just want things to be back to normal. I know they won't be but we at least should know what is true and what are lies that people are spreading. I gotta run to make dinner so I will update more later.

WHY WON'T THIS CRUSH GO AWAY?!?

Ok so me and Pate didn't go to a movie on Saturday. We just went to lunch at Panda Express. Which was good cuz I love that place. We didn't get to hang out for very long cuz he had singing practice at 1. But it was fun anyway. We talked for a little while and he told me stories about his little brothers and sisters. OMG they are so cute. When I went to pick him up for our date on Saturday one of his sisters told him that he needed his mom there to do his hair cuz he didn't know how to make it look good. HAHA HAHAHA! it was so funny. Anyways after we went to lunch we went to wal-mart to see my mom. It was a good hang out...i guess it really wasn't a date. but yea. I was kinda depressed and sad after I took him home though becuz usually he will hold my hand or put his arm around me but he didn't at all on Saturday. It was kinda weird. :-[ oh well I like him alot but right now I'm cool with just friends. Today he asked me if I would take him to work cuz he needed a ride so I told him yea I would take him and on the way to take him to work he was asking me about school and graduation and he asked if I was going to go to college and all of these other questions about school. It was kinda cute cuz in Tonga, school isn't really important so he never really went to school and he told me how next year he is going to get his GED and he said how he wishes that he could've grown up in America or at least went to school. :-) He's really cute. But anyways I gotta go my brothers are fighting. Peace out!!

I'm So Excited and I Just Can't Hide It!!!

Oh Snap...guess what????? :-) :-] I'm so excited becuz Pate asked me to hang out on Saturday morning before I go to work!!! Yay Yay! He said he will take me to a movie...but you know that I will keep you updated. But yea I'm so excited...I could just scream...AHHHH! haha! :-) Anyways peace out I will update you later. hehe

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Well Christmas was good and New Years was even better. I'm happy that I'm here and alive and living a good life...most of the time. Anyways New Years Eve was absolutely wonderful! I went shopping, ate dinner and rang in the New Year with my grandparents and my aunt Jill, Luinda, Jason, Chad, and all of their kids. It was so much fun. But to top it all off I had the perfect ending to a new year when I got to see Pate! I didn't get a new years kiss :-( but I got a hug which was good enough. Haha. It was a good night. Although I really wish that my 2 week vacation from school didn't go by so fast but oh well that's life.



For the New Year I only want a few things to happen. I want to graduate, I want my mom to be happy, I want my brothers to be happy, I want all of my family including cuzins aunts and uncles to be happy and healthy. But most of all I want to start my own life. It probably won't happen until next year but I want to start a life of my own. And last but not least I hope this year is drama free! A little drama is ok...I just don't want to be sad most of this year...I want to be happy and enjoy life. I hope everyone had good a good holiday season and I hope this next year is a better one! :-) Love ya!